I believe this to be the most short-visioned day i've steped upon. I feel like i've played a heavy game of ping-pong--a game full of doubts and avoiding. The voices whisper in the left and right ear. It scares me because i've felt my heart numb over the fleeting weeks. What scares me more is that i havent done the things i needed to.
I remember the day the distraction crept in and when the doubts numbed me.
I've always wanted to live in an age of war. It's not that I didnt want peace but I wanted to be apart of winning a war for peace. I've wanted to live in an age with swords and martial arts. I may win or lose but the confrentation is easier knowing its an opponent I can see.
what is this world before me? Why do I face these battles with enemies I cant see? Facing one self in battle will never be an easy battle. I've always seen it as a game of chess. Its a game where I'm both players. Its a world I can never grasp or see but feel the results through my days.